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Decluttering Revisited– What About All Those Memories?

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We have memories throughout our lives.  My youngest granddaughter, about to turn 8, talks about them often – a particularly engaging dream in the past, a game that we used to play when she was “little” (last year) but don’t anymore, something that she used to be but is not now (meat eater to vegetarian).  Like me, she enjoys reading books and looking at TV shows that she liked earlier, with even a hint of nostalgia, as if enjoying a piece of childhood that is slipping away. 

Sound familiar?  Since childhood I have kept memory storage bins, each of which is like that huge box of family photos that you don’t want to throw away and can’t bear to sort.  Many are chronological, labeled high school, college, married with children, etc.  Others are topic-centered – friends, lovers, places, peak and low experiences. Significant memories are in multiple bins.  I know that these “keepers” are barely sorted…

Richard Rohr describes aging as an opportunity to return to a “second simplicity” in which we can discard useless complexity, mental, and sensory overload in favor of getting down to basics:  Who am I?  How have I been in the world?  What do I want from my relationships with others and with myself?

I confess: I am skeptical about whether a simple identity, with all the compulsions and desires of my earlier years stripped away, is within my reach.  Although I am retired, life still feels busy and complicated.  But I am willing to give it a try because I am drawn to the path…

But is it that simple?  Do I just need to Marie Kondo my memory files, finding those that give me joy or, alternatively, those that Rohr calls “bright sadness.”   And what happens to the increasing complexity that I become aware of when I unearth “old stuff” that has been buried for a while?

I could stop rummaging and just read more – friends talk about how reading is increasingly a simple pleasure.  But I like fiction, and great novels tickle my memory.  Any woman who has lived through a failing marriage will be moved by Anna Karenina, even if their own story is not an exact parallel.  I need Jane Austen to relive the way in which the constraints of our own culture shaped my earlier self – and how I prevailed (or did not…). And new books – I just finished Stone Yard Devotional by Charlotte Wood – propel me to reflect on my life, which adds rather than detracts from complexity!  I am not going to stop reading, even when it makes me dive into yet another storage bin…

But some files are dusty, and I have avoided them for years because they are
complicated.  One could be labeled “Random Regrets.”  I should just pitch them in the trash without looking…but, like the old box of unsorted family photos, the temptation is too great. 

discarded memories

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At the top are moments of deep embarrassment, usually where ignorance or bad behavior stripped away a carefully constructed façade.  I still cringe at the time when I forcefully claimed that Austria was no longer a country…to a friend’s parent who was in active service in Europe in WWII.  I could put that one in the “No Longer Need” bin.

Less embarrassing but more poignant are regrets about people who were once in my life but are no longer. This hit me again as I was fumbling around in another file labeled “Living in London, 1967” and unearthed Jonathan, who has not come to mind for at least 40 years.   He was a typical, slightly damaged product of bad food, cold showers, and bullying in what the English call a “public school”.  Handsome enough, well-read in the Oxford kind of way, he could out-vocabulary me on almost any topic.  And I allowed him to kiss me when we went out and said yes when he called. 

But I didn’t really want more – I was willing to go out with him only until I solidified my relationship with a tall, rangy, and bright-eyed Cambridge graduate with floppy hair. He had recently returned from sailing across the Atlantic in a small boat and had an explorer’s spirit, only somewhat tamed. 

Jonathan was a spare. 

As I write that, I know it is true, but the discomfort is what Rohr calls a “bright sadness.”  I can see recurrent patterns of casually using people that escaped me at the time, perhaps because they were so frequent.  The memory of Jonathan (who was in my life for a short time) induces thick discomfort about how the thoughtlessness of the young adult me, whose need to be right, popular, and a bit of a smart ass, overcame my desire to be kind.

When I rummage around in the regrets file, I know that I cannot afford to toss everything if I hope to be on the path of second simplicity.  As I refile Jonathan into a new “Bright Sadness” bin, I am reminded of my increasing humility.  I still make mistakes, but I want to avoid old patterns that are inconsistent with the simpler me who gets up each morning asking how I can make that day’s actions more consistent with a loving universe.  Yet I also know that Marie Kondo-izing my memory bins is needed to reconcile with my less compassionate side, which I can now call “the Jonathan problem.”

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The path to a second simplicity does not feel simple, nor do I think that Richard Rohr expects that.  To walk that path I need to confront, with humility (and often uncomfortable humor), who I have been.  No polished version; just me, warts and all.  That is closer to the curious wonder that I remember from my elementary school years than to the gravitas that I later labored to assume. 

Returning to a simpler but wiser self – a complicated job that requires regular housecleaning? 

Decluttering – But Be Sure Not to Cut Too Deeply

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From Richard Leider through Marie Kondo, it is all about getting rid of stuff.  Stuff is not just STUFF (physical things) but includes sorting through memories, photos on your computer, etc.  It is also getting rid of assumptions that draw us into exclusionary thinking, such as examining the invisible knapsack of White Privilege (or any other kind of privilege).  Many of the references to decluttering are aimed specifically at US, older people who have never done anything other than randomly box stuff up and put it in the (literal or metaphorical) attic or basement.  According to Margareta Magnusson, who popularized the Swedish practice of döstädning, every person over 50 should get started because we are getting older and will otherwise leave a mess for the next generation.

And oh, the side benefit:  All of the above assume that if you do this, you will be happier.  Not just content, but even joyful, as your decluttered work life (or busy volunteer life) takes on a new sense of meaning, and your sentimental life becomes serene, as you chuck (or donate) unused bits-and-pieces of physical or emotional stuff that belonged to your dead grandparents. 

It took Dan and me six months to sort out the miscellany in the basement and attic of our house before we moved to a condo.  The stuff was unbearable, ranging from old toys to photography equipment from a distant hobby.  After moving, we did feel joyful and free as we surveyed our minimalist and light-filled new space.  We have not decluttered in the sense that any of the popular authors suggest, however.  We are influenced by our depression-raised parents, for whom reusing every bit of string was a virtue – and today’s ecological focus, which says “don’t throw and reuse”.  Books may go to the Little Free Library, but we are also liberal in borrowing from the same….as is visible in the pile of last summer’s planned summer reads.

But decluttering is about more than that.  Leider says, when repacking our bags for life’s journey, we should decide “what’s essential for the road ahead—what to let go of and what to keep, how to lighten your load, both tangible and intangible, for the new way that is opening up.”

However, If you google unpacking and repacking, the first things that come up are illustrated instructions on what to do when you get a package filled with complicated “stuff” that you need to put together – and possibly repack because it wasn’t what you wanted.  The first instruction is “Be sure to not cut too deeply”.  I kept looking for a googly way to keep that post from coming up first, but it stayed there.  I kept reading it.

Marie Kondo emphasizes the importance of finding joy in those things that we decide not to get rid of.  And, on All Saints Day (aka Halloween) I was reminded again that there are small things that we keep in our lives because they have become totems that store the memories of people who have been important to us – or even people who we never knew but who were important to another person who is dear. Maybe they are in a closet or on a shelf, largely ignored removed and dusted off once a year.  Is it the homely and old-fashioned candy dish that graced a great aunt’s Thanksgiving table?  Or the deteriorating butter box that is the only item to survive my great-great grandmother’s frightening and exhilarating journey from a rocky farm in Småland to a new life in Minnesota in the 1860s?   Neither belong in a curated/decluttered loft-like condo, but getting rid of them would require a cut too deep, even though it is not possible to say that they give me joy.  Fortunately, they are small, and can be kept without feeling like much of a burden, still carrying the deep past.  And they carry simple stories about where “we” came from.

But back to the larger “stuff” that contains emotions and occupies physical and mental space.  I just sent out a last call to my cousins to see if anyone wants our great grandfather’s rather homely and cumbersome late 19th century desk.  It no longer fits in any space in my daughter’s soon-to-be-renovated house, but everyone in my generation is down sizing.  The next generation is already in their 40s and each of them has accumulated too much stuff to accommodate it.  They are the ones who really need Kondo/Leider/Magnussen! 

I am (after much agonizing) at peace with the fact that the desk will probably go to another family — and I will survive without knowing where it is.  But the stories that come with the desk (and the candy dish and butter box) will survive because whenever the desk was moved the dates, locations, and mover’s names were recorded in a non-visible place.  They form a bare bones record of the dispersal of my father’s family from its roots in a village in Minnesota to New York, Massachusetts, Michigan….A photographic record of “The History of Great Grandpa Rose’s Desk” can become another easily stored totem of family history – if we remember to tell the stories.