Less than three weeks ago, I was hit making a right turn from a freeway exit. I never saw the car until it slammed into the side of my car on the driver’s side and the airbag inflated—almost simultaneously. Wham! The airbag smacked the side of my head, stunning me. I was not sure if I was alive and if more was coming. I had to escape, get out of the car, see if I could stand, walk around. Make sure I was okay. In a Volkswagen, if the side airbag inflates, the others do too, so it took a frantic few seconds for me to figure out how to exit the car.

I’m okay; the car was totaled. In the warp speed of modern life, I already have a new vehicle, and I’m driving around with renewed caution. As I told one of my grandchildren, “Confident Karen has been compromised.” Yet again.

Maybe I’m telling this story because I need to keep telling it and telling it to take the power out of the memory. I’m also telling it here because it’s the perfect example of how physically vulnerable we are as human beings. Did you ever, as a child, step on an ant hill and crush both the ants and their home? I did. I felt powerful when I did it, but I also saw how fragile life is. I believe that experiences like this teach us, from childhood on, that we, too, are living things, and thus as physically vulnerable as the smallest ant.

Life can change in what seems like seconds. Sometimes there are clues but often we sidestep their importance. Take life threatening illnesses. Gary Stout complained of indigestion for a couple of months before finally seeing a doctor. In four days (which included the weekend), we had a terminal pancreatic cancer diagnosis. Jim Storm looked a bit yellow on our trip to Florida in spring of the year that he almost died from sepsis. I thought he was tanning too much; he thought he had the flu. He had a perforated ulcer that led to life-threatening sepsis.

Fortunately, such tragedies are not the norm, but admit it, modern life can be a jungle lurking with human versions of predators—unexpected bills, diseases in ourselves and loved ones, deaths, loss of jobs, threats of poverty or alcoholism, pandemic. What makes us different than animals, however, is our consciousness. We believe we can ward off predators with anticipatory actions, yet life deals surprises, aptly expressed by the word “accident.”

 In fact, as Erich Fromm writes: The price that man pays for consciousness is insecurity. He can stand his insecurity by being aware and accepting the human condition. . . He has no certainty; the only certain prediction he can make is: “I shall die.”

Here’s where emotional vulnerability comes in. Fromm proposes that humans develop a frame of orientation. We organize the world cognitively and emotionally, and we adapt. To me, that orientation is the human equivalent to the instincts that drive animals. Our vulnerability is not only physical, but there’s an emotional component, threats to our orientation, the meaning we are constantly making.

Here’s an example from my 6^th grade. I was older than my classmates, and I was mortified when my unexpected breasts emerged before theirs. I thought everyone was staring at them. I hunched my shoulders forward and put a tee shirt under my clothes to hide them. It didn’t help that my mother took me to Zahn’s Department store to be fitted for a bra. I still recall the humiliation of the poking and pinching as she and the clerk said how perfect my breasts were. Really? Couldn’t they see my reddening face? Every day in school, I felt vulnerable, different, and fearful that I wouldn’t be accepted by my classmates, the other girls.

In her blog Vulnerability: What’s in a Word, Karen Rose described what I believe is one recourse for vulnerable beings on an unpredictable planet—the ability to share our vulnerability, so we are not alone with it. But it isn’t as easy as it sounds.

From protecting my budding breasts to protecting my adult insecurities, I’ve been a slow learner about emotional vulnerability. Jim Storm was a good role model, as he loved a good discussion. If I said, “We have to talk,” he was in. “Let’s” he’d answer smiling, sitting down in his favorite chair, folding his hands, and adopting his social worker mien. He listened and honored my inner truth, demonstrating that not only do we need our own courage to be vulnerable, but we can also open the door for others to do the same.

Getting older is helpful. I realize, THIS IS IT. I may not get another chance to tell others that I love them, that they are full of baloney and I still love them, or that they are driving me nuts and I still love them. I’m not suggesting crossing boundaries, but simply owning my vulnerability, both physical and emotional. I’ve gradually learned that by plowing ahead, taking the risk of being vulnerable, I’ve both revealed new dimensions in relationships and also given others permission to be vulnerable to me. I can be there for others and myself.

To live is to be vulnerable, yet most of us want life to last as long as possible. Our physical vulnerability is offset by good surprises, babies, weddings, graduations, birthdays, our dream job. Even better are relationships filled with love, and this planet is ever glorious. So why not be vulnerable to others—you already are—and go through it together.