A few weeks ago, Dan and I went to a Death Café – it was on a whim, because I saw it in a Barnes and Noble e-mail that I was in the process of deleting. Also because I have been trying to live into Julia Cameron’s advice to have an artist’s date every week. Planning anything a week ahead when I am trying to spend as much time as possible with Opal (our 20 month-old granddaughter) seems almost impossible. She-Who-Rules has not figured out that adults are happier when the children in their lives have a regular nap schedule…in any case, why not go on the spur of the moment?
We had no idea what to expect, but showed up along with eight other people at the “Solarium” (a space with lots of windows next to the Pets section) in the back of the Boulder, Colorado B&N. Our volunteer facilitator introduced herself as someone with experience with both hospice and midwifery. Beginnings and endings, her specialty. We started with a brief introduction to the Death Café – who knew that this was an international movement, and that all over the globe there were other people participating in discussions about death on a regular basis. If you don’t believe me, Google it yourself (https://deathcafe.com)– the first thing that pops up is “Welcome to Death” followed by an invitation: “At a Death Cafe people drink tea, eat cake and discuss death. Our aim is to increase awareness of death to help people make the most of their (finite) lives.” Today, as I write this, I could attend one in St Luis Obispo or Quezon City in the Philippines.
How odd – my first thought – how can this be so popular? Why does the idea of meeting with strangers to talk about death have meaning from Lake Forest, New York to Goteborg, Sweden (oddly, as we entered, I passed by the popular book, The Gentle Art of Swedish Death Cleaning, by Margareta Magnusson). So I sat feeling intrigued but somewhat detached, observing the people sitting in the circle with Dan and me with interest. Across from me were three older women (in other words people roughly my age!) all looking very Boulder. That means middle class with tiny efforts to be a bit offbeat – a purple streak through gray hair or an embroidered vest. There was a couple who appeared to be about 50, and next to me a very large man of about the same age, who made it clear that he had come only because he was asked by the facilitator. A rather sad looking woman in her sixties arrived late, and positioned herself slightly outside the circle, although we made every effort to rearrange the chairs.
So why had they come? We began by offering up our reasons, some of which (like mine) were curiosity, others because they had recently experienced a death. One was still trying to make sense of a loss many years ago of a beloved brother; another because the passing of her sister made her aware that there was no one left in the world who knew her as a child. No one there was ill or recovering from a serious illness. In fact, we all looked rather vital….
I opened, saying that I was coming from curiosity – wanting to try new things – and because the last year had been full of deaths and skirmishes with death for multiple friends. By the time we finished with our offerings – what drew us, what our experiences were with death –it felt as if we were part of an intimate circle. The feeling of instant membership was odd—I can’t think of another time when I have entered a group of strangers and felt so quickly as if I belonged. Also, the often-noisy Judge in my head – the one that edits what other people are saying while they are just beginning to formulate their thoughts — was surprisingly quiet. What people talked about silenced The Judge – it was as if the topic of death encouraged a level of intimacy that you would never find in other settings.
The 50-year old man talked (at great length) about the paradox of watching his brother suffer over several years and the joy of seeing him become increasingly spiritual and at one with his life. We talked about acceptance – one of my mantras – we talked about the experiences of being present with someone who was dying. We talked about whether we wanted a death surrounded by loving relatives or whether, in our deepest heart, we wanted to be alone on the journey. One woman – the only one with any apparent attachment to an image of afterlife – was very positive that she would be reincarnated – and that she would retain a great deal of the knowledge and experience that she already possessed. No one else seemed to be certain of anything except that the idea that dying filled him or her with awe. Only Cat, the 50-ish wife of the man whose brother had dies some years ago, said little.
So we were there for well over an hour. Dan and I left feeling that it had been a remarkable experience. Why can’t we find this level of connection without having to confront death? What is it about a Death Café that promotes connections when other conversational opportunities do not?
Postscript: I drafted this early last spring when I was in Boulder, Colorado – escaping harsh Minnesota winter for a milder version. Looking back after six months, community seemed to surface from a collective experience that was simultaneously anonymous and intimate. We were there for remembrance as well as being open about both the wounds and healing that we experienced individually. If you want to be part of this, you can: The website says, “People who adopt the model set out in our guide are welcome to set up their own Death Cafes. So far we’ve held Death Cafes in 65 countries.” I think that I will take them up on the invitation….
I’d go, if someone starts one in the Twin Cities.
I am not there yet Karen & neither are you ♥️
My takeaway is at the end — it is what Margaret Wheatley urged us to do in “Turning to One Another” and Robert Coles in Handing One Another Along. How do we gather people together to talk about “stuff that matters” — “stuff” that affects us all and where we don’t start with the assumption of opposition and knowing….Wow!
BTW — THANKS FOR READING (and noting that I am not yet dead….) 🙂
I’m familiar with these because they’re a regular element of life in Portland OR. Your thoughtful piece captures the unusual connection that comes from finding that talking about a taboo topic is easier with strangers than with those closest. Kind of like telling things that are otherwise secrets to your airplane seat mate. An interesting phenomenon for sure. I wonder how many attendees at a session go on to initiate a conversation about death with their loved ones.
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What was so surprising was how easy it was to talk about taboos with strangers — In the U.S. we treat death like grief — as if it is an event and not a process/passage that may have dimensions that conflict with a scientific view of what happens to the brain and body.